This is my last week as a teenager. Pretty insane! I don't feel like I am almost 20 at all! I still feel like a little kid selling lemonade and catching grasshoppers (back before I was afraid of them). How does time move so quickly? I find it exciting, but more than that, scary!
The idea that it is time for me to "grow up" and make grown-up decisions is pretty intimidating. I have always liked to be independent and take on responsibilities...but some of the responsibilities facing me in life are a little too extreme for me. I just found out that my best girlfriend is pregnant. Wow! I am SO excited for her and yet I can't imagine being anywhere NEAR that stage in my own life. I guess she has always been 10 steps ahead of me though since we were little.
As I approach the time in my life where people start asking when I'll be getting married I start to wonder...how do you know?! If I THINK I am supposed to marry someone is that good enough? Do I really think... or do I know? Is it a "still small voice" kind of thing or will it be like a lightning and thunder answer? I am the type of person to wait for the thunder and lightening before I would make that big of a decision. But am I right? What if I'm wrong? AGH! See what I mean... too much pressure! And no one can really help you decide because no one KNOWS what YOU feel. Even if you tell them...they still don't know.
